Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Mind - Consciousness Relationship

25/02/2009
According to my understanding, following are the components of consciousness:
a) awareness - all pervading, present at all times
b) memory - memory, which keeps track of each and every experience.
c) ordinary mind - is created when an experience arises
d) power of creator - FC has the power/mechanism to illuminate the experiences held in mind by giving a physical body to the experiences encapsulated in mind.
e) providing 'energy' to the manifestation so that it is able to carry out its tasks.
f) observer status - this is created as a result of ordinary mind coming into existence. FC keeps an 'observer' status in the manifest state. It allows ordinary mind to gain the experience it wants, without interfering. However, when the ordinary mind consents to merge with the all pervading awareness, then FC only works for the manifestation instead of ordinary mind. When a person reaches enlightenment, s/he actually gains the experience of being the one in all and all in one.
For FC, the 'awareness' status and 'memory' status is always there (memory is there because of awareness only). For the purpose of manifestation, FC illuminates the experience by creating a body associated with the mind in question. It takes a back seat by holding on to the 'observer' status for a particular experience.
This ordinary mind also stores data in memory locations. For a particular experience, there are basic attributes as well as derived attributes (which are a result of manifestation interacting with other manifestations in this world). This means for each basic attributes (planned attributes) in memory location of mind, there are derived attributes (actual results), which are located in memory locations corresponding to the basic/planned attributes. These derived attributes, when go uncontrolled, there is a major shift from 'what is' or the basic attributes of a particular manifestation. Here problem arises. The derived attributes keep on multiplying endlessly and the manifestation is not able to experience them in the incarnation in question. Due to mind's attachment to these derived attributes and forgetting of its 'composite' status, it is not able to dissolve itself in FC after leaving the body. This is also a reason for dark for thriving and this increases the chances of manifestation being ensared by dark minds or dark force after leaving the body as well as in the body. FC allows mind to rule the body and its mechanisms for a particular experience, so that it is fully experienced and mind has no other desire left.
After being incarnated, mind gets an impression of being separated from its roots as it is 'free' to choose its options and there is a limitation in its knowing its own true nature, of which it is a part. Here, there are two possibilites:
i) mind gets an impression that it is the only truth and gets attached to experiences of a particular incarnation. It forgets its 'all pervading' status. Such mind is not able to properly coordinate the energy, awareness with itself as well as the body and is prone to illness (both mental and physical. Such mind falls trap into karmic incarnations. This is because at the time of leaving the body, mind is not able to dissolve or dispose off iteself and its temporary experiences, which have anyways been recorded it its own larger whole - the FC. Here, it stays undissolved. But it does have access to information stored in FC. But power of mind is limited as its not getting a regular energy flow from FC. Ordinary lost minds have no energy at all in this state. But dieties and deemed gods etc, who are worshipped by live manifestations ooze out energy from these manifestations and use it for their selfish dark purposes. These energised dark minds can highlight experiences of the other lost minds using this available energy.
ii) mind keeps itself alligned with its basic attributes ie 'what is'. As a result, there is no wastage of energy on the derived experiences. Due to this, it is able to better coordinate the awareness and energy aspects between itself and the body. Such an incarnation normally stays healthy. The mind, because of its not drifting away, has the capacity of dissolving itself into all pervading awareness (FC) and incarnation reaches enlightenment. Even when mind leaves body for good, it disposes itself off into FC and there are no further incarnations.







Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Mind - composite or fragmented

24th Feb, 2009
Many times a question has come to my mind. Is it true that there is a separate mind for different aspects? Is it true that soul fragments exist? Even while doing the alexander technique, I tried to observe this phenominon. When I focussed on one part of body, I could sense some energy in that part of the body. For the rest of the body, at that time, it was as though nothing else existed, but that particular body part.
This means that there are two possibilties:
a) for each part of body or lets say each aspect of life then (emotions, etc) , there is a separate mind.
b) mind is same for everything. Difference lies in its application or awareness.
My energy testing is weakening for the first possibility and strengthening for the second. What makes the difference is awareness. When we direct our mind to a particular activity or part of body, we are focussing our awareness on that aspect. Most of the time, when we are living in physical body, we can mostly overcome all the blocks in awareness and come back to 'what is' because of underlying and unaltered principle, 'fundamental consciousness' and physcial phenomina that keep us occupied and demand our awareness to be directed to physical facts and reality. As one of the important aspects of FC is all awareness. This all awareness usually tries to get a manifestation in reality or what is state. It is only the ordinary mind, which, due to its own attachments, is not able to come to terms with 'what is'.
All that we experience is stored in two locations: our ordinary mind (vehicle for experience) and fundamental consciousness. Two possibilities:
a) When we are alive, the trauma material, which we cannot take care of is stored in different parts of mind. This causes blockages in mind and the particular memory that relates to trauma has an effect on our further experiences and actions (because mind travels both forward and backward to locate significant data for dealing with life situations). So, its not that a soul/mind is fragmented while we are living. But particular incident/trauma causes a blockage in mind, which in turn, even blocks the flow of energy to that particular location. This gives an impression that soul/mind is fragmented. This can affect the health of physical body. When the trauma feelings are so much that the manifestation cannot think of anything else, s/he cannot focus on other experiences/aspects of life and consider trauma only as the main involving fact/factor. In that case, there is complete shut down of energy to other aspects of life and all of it is spent or wasted on trauma only. This gives an impression that there are holes in non physical parts (mind).
Other explaination to this is:
Mind usually plans in advance its experiences in life (which are stored at one particular location). It reconciles these experiences with actual possibilities materialized (These are stored in corresponding location to planned experiences). Till the time this activity is being done, things are fine. But when this activity stops at one particular location or there is a missing actual recording or 'what is' when it materializes (due to the fact that awareness could not be directed to that particular task), there can be 'holes' in non physical parts. This does not mean that part of mind have fallen away. But it means that part of awareness was lacking. When mind is directed later to focus on those events (where holes can be sited), mind can direct awareness there. Then memory is upgraded and manifestation in question feels that lost parts have been integrated.
b) When we die with a truma or when we are ensnared by the dark force, the entire awareness of mind is trapped on that one particular incidence. At that time, unlike physical world, nothing else happens to bring us out of that trap. As a result, entire awareness is on that particular incidence only and that only seems to be true. The soul/mind remains in traumatised state till it further incarnates and finds out ways for its coming out of the trap. But if it can't, then while living also, consciouness is trapped in particular incidence and it seems as if different soul fragments are working.
However, one thing that I still need to figure out is:
Are mental, emotional and physical bodies different? Do all these compose mind?

Mar 4, 2009
I've come to an understanding that FC is all prevailant and all knowing. When it dispenses mind for a particular experience, the mind gets a status of 'part of' FC. It is part of FC means that the way our hands are part of our body, they are always there, but are not inside the body (the way heart, lungs, etc are). Hands, thus while working on something can get a feeling that they are composite whole if mind is able to focus its awareness on them.
When this mind is stuck out as a part of FC, there is a chord connected from FC to mind. This chord provides mind with attributes of FC, viz. awareness, energy. If mind is able to use the awareness properly, it merges with FC ie goes back inside it and then FC takes care of all aspects. The manifestation does not deviate from 'what is' as the planned experiences more or less remain in sync with actual experiences.
However, when mind is not able to direct awareness properly and gets sidetracked by wants and wishes and dark practices, problem arises. The actual attributes which still have to be experienced are a clean slate. But derived attributes keep increasing and so does confusions. Mind increasingly forgets the 'one with all' status and keeps running in its materialistic pursuits. As a result, awareness shrinks and so does energy. The chord connecting mind is not able to provide adequate energy due to blockages created by mind as a result of shut awareness. Lesser energy being supplied becomes even lesser when it is further wasted on mind's derived attributes, to which mind is giving undue weightage. Problem is further aggravated by dark force interference at mind level.
When mind is not able to experience the basic attributes for which it came into being, there comes a blank or hole in that attribute. When mind plans too many derived attributes and in reality, they do not occur due to non existence of possibilities, mind gets attached to them and gets a major part of its awareness stuck in these attributes. Here, more energy is being wasted and awareness is trapped. These places in mind become black. If a person dies in such state, s/he thinks that this is only what its incarnation represented. With only such thoughts, the parasitic souls or minds attack other souls/minds. So, I call the phenomina 'fragmented awareness' rather than 'fragmented soul'.




Wednesday, February 18, 2009

How/why manifestation?

Feb 18, 2009
Manifestation is nothing but an illumination of a particular experience. This experience is witnessed or observed by the FC. In physical world, FC plays a direct role in illumination of an experience.
But in the dark force, the experiences already stored in the FC + experiences in the ordinary mind of a manifestation are used. These are then illuminated by the dark force to create terror and trauma and force a soul to undergo karmic incarnations as a result of mind's own attachments to the dark practices.
Here, I have few queries:
Dark force is an intelligent force, which is capable of creating an experience it wants, using the stored information in mind and FC. The manifestation in question has to be intelligent enough ie should know the modus operandi of the dark force to be able to shield itself from the attacks (which ofcourse seem real to that particular level of consciousness).
If there is a dark force, there should be and there is, I know, the 'real force', which creates original experiences and illuminates them. This is the role of force. This force is again a part of FC. These experiences also are a illusion as when a manifestation takes place, one forgets the all knowing status as one gets associated with a body, mind and a limited brain power. What is this force? This force is capable of creating illusions, which are witnessed by FC. Is it really true that individual components of FC (ie the i-ness aspect), when free from effects of force can be in non-incarnated state forever? OR
In FC, there is nothing as different locations or individuality (as it is one without duality). Whenever, force, its component, wants to create an experience (for joy of being - which is both in physcial as well as non incarnated states), FC takes observer status for that incarnation. This means that one who is enlighted comes out of the clutes of 'force' in state of enlightenment. S/he is in pure awareness (or consciousness as FC as an observer knows all and FC in its databank has stored all information)...
Which of the two hypothesis is correct. The second one seems to be appropriate. But I'll not do energy testing on these for the time being. I'll wait and watch.
Suddenly, a new understanding:
Force and mind are the same thing. That is why when one is enlighted, s/he merges with pure consciousness and transcends mind. When one dies, mind is dissolved into FC. This suggests that force is same as mind. That is why when we surrender our ordinary mind to FC, FC takes over and we become the direct observer - the non doer, whereas mind is a doer. Force or mind is capable of creating illusions (physical/non physical) and is capable of alligning that 'consciousness' status with the illusion it creates.
That is how the dark force or minds which have not yet dissolved due to wrong intentions connects with other minds (which is again force) and is capable of creating non-physical illusions that seem true to a particular state of consciousness.

Feb 23, 2009
However, 'physical body' can't be made by mind because it is incomplete. Physical body can be created by Fundamental consciousness only. This is how illusion is created (comprising mind + physical body). [For illuminating a particular experience, FC waits for the right time and right circumstances. ]

Apr 2, 2009
FC contains experiences. But because of non-duality, it cannot 'react' to any experience or so to say a feeling. FC has itself become (due to number of manifestations) anger, fear, hope, joy, peace, violence, etc. But one prime factor FC has is love because love is its true nature ie love for itself. This love is only what lies in its unmanifest form. All other experiences lie unilluminated and there is no associated feeling with it. Because it can't react to these experiences which are a part of its nature, FC uses mind to illuminate these experiences. The reactions to these experiences are observed by it, using the mind principle. It is the mind which produces these reactions.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

My core essence

Feb 17, 2009
I try to work out everything with my core essence these days. For finding out which food or item suits my kids, I assume that my core essence is expanding to reach theirs and then do energy testing on that particular food or item. After that, I visualize that my core essence is again back in me. But have to ascertain whether or not its safe to do so. My energy testing gives a 'strengthening' response.

My experiments and interferences

Feb 17, 2009
Its been many days since I've been sensing lot of astral interference in my energy system (around my nose, spinal cord, inbetween eye brows, crown). I observe this interference and then try to bring my mind back to my core essence. Then try to dissolve this odd energy around me in the core essence. But today, while doing the alexander technique, I was not successful. The interference was maximum in my energy system. I could first feel it in my spine, then point between my eye brows and then in my throat. But finally, I started doing eye energy movements. This did help. But off and on, interference comes back.
When I was doing power walking today, it was dark outside and I was the only one walking (it seems). Suddenly a deep fear came in my mind. As though footsteps following me and trying to take over me. I looked back. There was nothing. Again, started walking. But the fear creeped in. After completing my walk, I came in and tried this:
I said to myself: "The fear in my mind is submitting itself to my core essence. It is merging in my core essence, which is all powerful. This fear will not cause my mind to be hijacked when I die, so that I can dissolve peacefully. Then did tonglen breathing with this intend, as I did initially for dissolving the astral force.

Friday, February 6, 2009

Feeling

Am I a duty
or an experience
Am I a body or a thirst of mind
whatever may be
I am all
found true companion in this search
I will know it all and shall walk the path

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Manifestation - Living this physical life

Feb 05, 2009
As far as I've observed, the main feeling for entire humanity is today - 'worry'. For every aspect of life, there is a feeling of worry or 'what if' attached. As a result, we deviate majorly from what is and become possessed with what if syndrome. This syndrome mainly comes as a result of lifestyle a person is leading. Mostly, every person wants to make things work as per his/her choice and expectation. He/she wants name, fame, glory ie in crux wants to be a controller rather than a facilitator or part. This has lead to many problems. Forcing others to believe what I think is right, without considering his/her choice or 'what is' for a particular incarnation.
i've come to understand one thing. 'What is' for one incarnation can never be same for another. That is why there is so much diversity. No two human beings even look the same. So, what's the use of getting just a 'point' across, rather than the whole concept? What I mean to say is that we as humans control so much. We want animals to behave the way we want them to. We criticize so much that we don't even know our limits and end up causing real 'emotional traumas'.
These are further accelerated by the dark force. So, as FC, I really need to remember the process of incarnation or incarnate without the fear of being born. Otherwise, the 'separation' feeling will haunt me forever and while being born, I'll always look for solace in company or solace in other manifestations. Will I achieve this? Otherwise, for ever, there will be issues of right, wrong, my religion superior to yours, my beliefs stronger and valid than yours...
Even in a small setup (a home) people don't let others exist. They want the entire space and say. As a result, cause damage to others. Is this the kind of manifestation FC wants today. ie not being able to co-exist with its own manifestations,which are nothing more than different experiences. I somehow have a strong belief that the dark force has come into existence as a result of feeling of separation. Due to this feeling, the beings want to dominate others rather than being a part of others.
Do I include this as an affirmation?