Healing/Intent?

31 Jan 2009
Yesterday my son had a severe cough and cold. He was coughing non stop. Having admistered all medicines, I did this:
Held a clear intent in my mind: Cough and cold, leave this body. Go away. Then messaged him a bit on his head, neck, chest and back. When he woke up, his cough had become less. Though I had used a nebulizer on him also, perhaps that worked. But normally, even the nebulizer takes time to work. Let me wait and watch if strong intent helps in recovery.
As with my daughter. She has been suffering from upset stomach, cough, cold, fever, ear infection and has been frequently falling ill since last 2 months. (I've observed that just like me, her system is sensitive to the kind of people around us. When the company is hostile and not favourable, the first thing that happens is stomach infection followed by fever and general lack of resistence). I've been taking good care of her, but did not try to heal her with my strong intent. Will include this for her and let me wait and watch the progress then.
But one thing is very clear: Neither am I a healer, nor a wisher (good or bad). Its only the core essence that works. I'm not attached to any result. Small experiments, small observations.
Though its not that I've got complete control on all my situations and emotional stuff as yet. Things do still get worse as its a recurrent phase. But now sometimes, I try this:
When the feelings of disgust, helplessness and loneliness grab me and heart starts pumping very fast and these feelings are on a constant rise, I feel as though a sea wave is rising. Then I kind of try to pull myself away from that intensity and 'come back' to my core essence. Amazingly, this has worked and I feel relieved. Intensity goes away. So, I have observed that I have to be willing to 'let go' of the feeling and not get attached to it. If I get attached to the feeling, I'm swayed away with it and can't be with my core essence.