Beliefs that need grounding post

Sept 2, 2009:
Following are my beliefs that need to be put to grounding post procedure:
1. Awareness is a part of bodily existence and chances are that once body is not there, awareness is not there and then one goes into darkness ie just as one sleeps and has no awareness in that duration.
2. Awareness is there or is not there when one is not incarnated.
3. Curiosity to know what awareness is wrt to non physical state and also wrt to the fact that if an aspect of consciousness is not incarnated, then where does awareness come into picture ie for an enlighted person, will there be a continuum of consciousness even after death (I can smell an astral realm being created here and a mind can easily skip transition if it has an impression that it has to maintain an awareness and could fall prey to astral realm). Also, how does awareness picture after non enlighted person's death (here again, astral realms can be created).
4. I am 'attached' to well being of people in general and whenever I see someone suffering, I can't stop 'feeling' for that person and can easily get into a 'sad' state of mind.
5. If I can 'help' someone, then I get 'actively' involved in that procedure and become the actor myself. The 'urge' to make someone come out of trap situations in which s/he is currently into.
6. Being 'comfortable' in a limited scenario where my awareness is limited to my physical existence.
7. 'Fear' of experiencing' my 'infinite' nature of reality and then clinging to my limitation whenever I feel that I'm nearing it.
8. All 'impressions' relating to enlightenment (like its an experience, etc).
9. If I try to 'perceive' my real nature, I'll be attacked by the dark force and the dark force's capability to do so.
10. What is called 'enlightenment' is some separate and special 'state' beyond my physical existence. When I go to that state, I'll loose touch with the physical world and then might be in danger.
11. My true nature is something about darkness or light or energy.
12. Fear of isolation, darkness and confinement.
13. Fear of old age and notion that when one goes into old age, s(he) has an unhealthy life and body at that stage becomes very difficult to maintain. I've gathered this impression because even the closest of current people are not really 'happy' to care of sick ones. When one is ill, that seems to be the toughest time as illness fosters 'dependecy' on other people. Other people do not do things according to wish of the person in question, ofcourse (they have their own life and brains). So, sickness can lead to depletion of one's life experience to a great extent.
14. My understanding my own true nature is a war between me and the illusionary realities that I am carrying and the dark force. The dark force will and is always throwing pranks to keep me away from realizing my true nature, no matter how hard I try to perceive it.