Total awareness

What 'awareness' implies? If I am having a dream, I think that is true (so my awareness or
consciousness is stuck there). If I am sleeping, I am unaware of everything else. So that is my awareness then. When I am awake, I can experience nothing else but my surroundings. So, that is my level of awareness then. How can I then reconcile all these states? Is awareness at any other level(s) apart from these states: dream, waking, sleeping?
23/11/08
'Awareness' is knowing 'what is' or the reality or the fact that I am just a witness to all phenomina that is a part of me. If I am angry, for that moment, I lose all my awareness to that anger. If I am happy, for that moment I lose all that awareness to that happiness. The balanced approach is to know that anger, happiness (or any other feeling) are a part of me and not the composite me. So, I am an observer or witness to all 'that is' (if we look at it, this is a duality in a sense that FC acts like an 'observer' to all its own components. It does not lose its true nature of a composite whole to any one component) . All that is in the matter, all that is in the mind and everything is just a part of me and not the whole of me. So, while in waking state, I am aware that waking is just a one component of me. While in sleeping state, I am still aware that sleep is a part of me. But if the mind in manifested body is not aware, then it is not able to reconcile with me, the reality and limits itself to one state/emotion/surrounding. So, the mind creates all illusionary realities from where dualities from where the drift deepens between me (FC), the real nature and nature of mind.
Nov 28, 2008
When we make such progress in the waking state, life does starts to improve and we have a better established or grounded awareness. However, for the sleeping as well as dreaming states, this awareness has to be built up. Ideally, I feel that there should'nt be a dreaming state. For sleeping state, this awareness strikes you once you start letting go off things in a positive manner. For example. yesterday, for the first time, I experienced such feeling. Till date, whenever I sleep, I just get into a reverie mode or else used to chant some mantras, which would help me to doze off to sleep. Once I got used to avoiding 'astral' connection, I again used to doze off to sleep with reveries. But yesterday, for the first time, something else struck my mind amidst my thoughts - I should 'know or should be aware' that I am going to sleep state. There should be a silence of thoughts in my mind before I sleep so that my thoughts don't invite an astral connection in sleep mode. There was a kind of knowing or awareness in this process of sleep, however, I tried to ensure that this does not lead to 'concenteration' which goes into meditation and thus astral subreality. Will further probe into it to understand what this actually means.

11 Dec 2008
Ok. I now understand the meaning of 'awareness'. But in practice, its not that easy to live it. I try to 'include' everything in me and be a part of everything ie I try to be a part of everything that is going around me. Try to keep my mind at par with the present moment and not delve in the past or have a wishful thinking about future. But its not that easy really. Mind still dwindles a lot. Think I'll take time to be grounded.
However, I still get angry and am not able to control it. Will try to 'watch' my anger. But then, anger doesen't come uninvited. This one emotion of anger brings in so many others and then the turbulance. The usual calm is then replaced with rising tides.